Part 16

Part 16

The next morning I was awaken early, given a bottle, washed up, and dressed. I heard Heather telling Mike that she would take me to my visit alone, since he had that big blow up with my mom yesterday, but he wasn’t having it. He told her that he took off of work so he can be there for me, because I’ll need the extra security today since yesterday went so bad. I couldn’t believe this, she almost dropped me, and I still have to go visit with her; I don’t see where this is fair to me. I know that the visit is supposed to be supervised at the agency, but just to stay safe I won’t make any sudden movements. Heather makes me extra bottles and pack my diaper bag up with everything that I’ll need. She was all over the place, I think she's worried about what will happen during the visit more than she should. She’s making me nervous, I need her to calm down a little. I started to cry so I could get her attention, she came over apologizing for ignoring me, and gave me kisses on my feet. Heather told me that everything is going to be okay, I don’t know who she’s trying to convince, me or herself; I know that at the end of the visit I'll br coming home; that’s all I care about.

They had me all set up and strapped in, Mike sat in the back with me this time while Heather drove. When he got in the car she started making these funny looking faces, I let out a giggle, and they laughed right along with me; it felt good to make them laugh for a change. During the ride we laughed and he tried to sing, he voice kept cracking like he was going to cry. Are they sending me away? Are they going to drop me off and never come back? I started to cry and Mike grabbed my hand, telling me that it’s only going to be for a little while and we would be home before I knew it. Okay, I’m good now, all of these emotions are hard to understand sometimes. He was smiling and singing, but sound like he was trying not to cry; this is confusing.

It wasn’t too long after our confusing moment that we pulled up in front of this big building. Heather stopped the car and they both went into prayer for me; asking God to cover me while I was away from them, and to give my mom the love that a mother needs to do right by her child; they were talking about me. Heather ended the prayer with an Amen but Mike wasn’t done, he needed to add something that I assume he felt that Heather missed. He wanted God to give my mom the understanding of her addiction, praying that this visit opens my mom’s eyes to the beautiful angel that she has been blessed with; how this angel is and will be a blessing to anyone in her path; yes, you guess it, he’s talking about me. All of these compliments are making me smile, I like it. He closed his prayer with an Amen and kissed me on the forehead. I looked around for Heather but I couldn’t see her, then the door opens, and it scares me so bad I passed gas. Again, they laughed and I joined them while Heather is making the stink face trying to get me out of my car seat. She gave me kisses on my forehead and they both joined hands while walking into the building.