Part 4

Part 4

No matter how much I pushed the hole just wasn't big enough, I had to wait on Mike to come, maybe he'll know what to do. A few more days passed then I heard his voice, Mike was back. I was so happy but this time he didn't seem as nice, he wasn't making jokes, he appears to be angry. I guess while I was asleep, my mom called him, and told him the truth. I could hear two voices other than my mom's, the other voice was real light, soft, soothing to my ears. Mike called the other person Heather; she was the one doing all of the talking, Mike was doing all of the yelling, but everything they were saying was true. She could've caused me to lose a fair chance in the World, that I was going to be born addicted to drugs, and how that wasn't fair to me. Mike and Heather told my mom to stop everything now, that I have a few weeks left before I'm due, and that I may make it out okay; only if she stopped now will they know for sure.

Heather asked when was the last time she did any drug, my mom lied and said a month ago, and that she believes child services was going to get involved. She asked Mike again about being my godfather and asked if child services did get involved would they be willing to take me. Without hesitation, they both said yes. I tugged on my cord, not because I wanted anything but because I was so happy that I have a godfather. I'm still not sure what that means but if Mike and Heather is involved, it has to be a good thing. Still no laughter but there was food and lots of it. I was stuffed, so stuffed I didn't care what else was going on, I was ready to go to sleep.

From that day forward, Mike made his way to see us and he would say hello to me and rub my mom's stomach; I would put my hand there and push so he could feel me. Mike couldn't stay all day so whenever he wasn't around, my mom made sure she played catch up for the time lost, by smoking throughout the night. We get a little sleep, then back to smoking until right before Mike comes. She would get in the shower everyday since he was coming, I guess to get the smell off of her. Everyday Mike would ask the same questions as before, but he got all the same lies. He told her that him and his wife are willing to take care of me while she goes to rehab and get her own place. My mom agreed but said she's not going to rehab because all they do there is drugs. Mike didn't say anything, he just laughed, and told her that as long as they have me, she’s welcome in their home, but she has to be sober. Before he left today, he told my mom that if anything’s wrong with me, she’s going to have to live with her choices, but they're going to love me no matter what; they'll love me just like they love their four children. There was nothing else said and the next thing I heard was the man that came before; the one that said he has everything my mom needs. When my mom told him that she picked Mike to be my godfather, the man told her he didn't care, he only slept with her because she was her get high buddy.

All night, all day, filled with smoke, and I’m ready to evacuate this pouch, I can’t take it anymore. I turn upside down again, so my head is towards the opening and I kick, but my head still won’t fit. I keep trying to squeeze myself in this hole but the hole isn't large enough. I kept pushing, resting, pushing, resting, pushing, then I heard Mike's voice. He's back to come get me, so I keep at it, I don't want to stop until I'm out of here. It's tight and I don't think I'll make it out of here with all that smoke.

I looked at the hole and couldn't understand why it's so small, but I kept pushing trying to open it up more. The last time I pushed I could feel something against my head, then the person said that my mom was getting close to giving birth. They asked if she wanted a pain killer, they told her to press the button, but it will only release once every thirty minutes. She sat up and must've been bending because I couldn't move at all. After a little time, everything was moving slowly, my hands were different colors, and I saw a light in that opening but I wasn't sure if it's real.