Part 7

Part 7

We went through another four feedings but nothing changed much, she fed me, smoked, and not that long after pass out. Most of the night I found myself crying, not because I was hungry but because I was uncomfortable. I heard the man that was with my mom say, that he was going to run out and grab more dipper fluid. When he came back he had a jar filled with clear liquid. They dipped a cigarette each in the fluid, waited for a few then started to smoke. There was so much smoke in this room that I started to choke, I couldn’t catch my breath; the smoke was so thick that I couldn’t see my mom anymore. That could be because I was breathing in the same thing they were, and I guess they have a different side effect because they're much bigger than I am. I was in a dark place, I couldn’t move, I was in and out of sleep, and eating was now a pastime. I’ve only been out the hospital for one day, and I think I’ve been in contact with more drugs than the law allows; even for an adult.

I was up for the rest of the night, everyone was still sleeping, and I’ve been crying for a long time now. Long enough that my throat hurts and the bed I’m lying on is wet; I had an accident in my diaper and needed it changed, but no one came to help me. I heard chirping coming from outside, the sound were so beautiful that I stopped crying, and went to back to sleep; dirty diaper and hungry. It was very quiet for a long time, then something happened and jolted me out of my sleep. There was yelling and stuff was flying over my crib, I didn’t know what was going on and didn’t feel safe, I wanted Mike back.

I was yelled at because I started crying while they were yelling, I don’t know what they were yelling about but whatever it was made my mom mad. The guy left closing the door really hard behind him, so hard that the force knocked a picture off of the wall. Silence came to visit again, then I heard my mom’s voice, she was talking to someone saying that she needed a break and wanted someone to come and pick me up. It seemed like within minutes Mike and Heather were there to get me. They made sure I was wrapped tightly before putting me in the car seat, they smiled, and Heather sat with me while Mike drove. It was like an adventure, there were all types of things outside, I couldn't see because of the sun, but I could hear everything. 

The car started to slow down then came to a halt in front of a house, Heather carried me but I couldn’t see anything still because my face was wrapped up; it’s cold outside. I could hear the door open, I was so excited to see where they lived and their other babies. I was laid down on the sofa and carefully unwrapped; when they uncovered my head, I saw a lot of faces, but in those faces were Heather and Mike. Even their children look like little Heathers and little Mikes, it was funny so I gave them a smile. Heather took me upstairs and started to run water in the tub, she undressed me completely, smiling at me the entire time. Mike walks in,

“What's that smell?” Mike said.

“It’s in her clothes Mike, they must’ve been smoking around her.” Heather said as tears rolled down her face.